I’ve deviated a bit from my original “mission statement” with this blog over the last few weeks, posting things of a non-religious nature. I was given some very good advice from someone who has already been there, done that, not sure if he has the t-shirt(ooh, there’s an idea). DagoodS wrote: “There is a great deal to be said for breathing. Taking a moment to breathe. In and out. Doesn’t hurt to take a five-minute moment and NOT worry about what to do next. Look outside, watch the world. Rest.” So I took a little breather to let the dust settle. I’m generally a pretty rational person, but I had let this storm cause panic in my chaos. I’ve slowed down, realizing I don’t have to know ALL the answers right now. I’m more at peace with the fact that I have doubts. The little break provided me the opportunity to calm down and approach this with my normal level headed view of life and it’s problems. I’ve decided that either Christianity is true or it isn’t and whether it is or isn’t there’s nothing to fear. If it is true I want to know it and I’ll believe, and if it isn’t….well it just isn’t and that’s okay, too. My biggest fear, if you can call it that, is not being able to figure it out and being somewhere in between. But if I’m truthful, having given up the idea of a literal hell, that’s not nearly as frightening as it once was either. Do I still have questions? Absolutely! But thanks to a wonderful online community who have shown me compassion, patience, and acceptance I’ve realized this isn’t the end of the world. It may be the end of the world as I knew it, but it’s a brand new world where I’m learning some pretty exciting things. I’ve woken up and the coffee smells like heaven on earth.